In Need

I usually can always find a little inspiration from music (and slight nudges in the back).

Speaking of music, I'm about to become the worship team leader at my church. I mentioned this during a discussion with some of my family members and one of my older cousins (you know the real funny one that every family has) said, "You. The same guy who used to try to have pool parties at his house when your parents weren't there." You know what they say about honor, a prophet, and his home town. I got to see this teaching first hand.

So yeah, it's quite an honor to have come from where I've been to a place where I'm leading others to worship God. Humbling? Yes. Frightened? Not really, though I feel as if everyone is trying (in an overly kind of way) to help me out or to make things easier...so that the burden doesn't fall on my soldiers when the current leader leaves (marriage makes people leave sometimes it seems). I must admit though that it has felt more like the people around me don't feel that I'm capable of fulfilling the requirements of the role. Of course this is all a big lie, but it's amazing how hard it is to fight against such lies. The devil has so many ways to turn us against each other.
Anyway, I'm trying to get over all the fore mentioned things and concentrate on the things that are right and good. My role is to be a servant who ushers others into worship and who helps others to the same. What a privilege! How good has God been to me when he allows me to do such a task; to use the gifts He has given and to be involved in a ministry I truly love. The simplicity will bring you to tears.

In other news, I recently had two surgeries. One was for a hernia and the other was an emergency surgery to check out the internal bleeding I caused by wearing pants that were too tight for me. Yes, that's right. I wore really tight pants to church 6 days after my surgery and I think the pressure caused me to bleed. I'm an idiot I know. I've learned my lesson. The good thing is that I'm on the mend and things are getting better. All of that has happened in the past two weeks. On a brighter note I've been showered with love from my church family and can say that I've witnessed real Godly community first hand. People have called, e-mailed, prayed for me, cooked food for me, and even let me stay in there house. That's how it should be in my humble opinion and it's a beautiful thing to see. It's contagious too. I've never been one who wanted to go near sick people or visit them in the hospital, but I'm seeing the era in my ways. It's our calling to do these things and it is in all actuality fairly easy to do. It's such an obvious need. We don't need to dig into some one's life to see something that is starring us directly in the face. When people are sick we should take care of them...out of love of course. It's really simple.
We just need to adjust our priorities if they haven't been already.

Sorry for the little rant. I've just been convicted of all this and felt like sharing it.

Anyway, I continue to seek God's will...no I mean it. I want walk with Him with every step I take. I need too. I've been longing for a closer relationship with God and I hope this prayer is answered. I've felt separated lately and maybe that's due to the new house or maybe something else, but personally I've felt a distance, a missed connection. Sure I have plenty of things and people around me to remind me of His goodness, but I've also been in a place where I felt like God was standing behind me...smiling when I smiled and vice versa. It's such an amazing experience.
All this to say that I'm thankful that God makes us aware of our needs and shortcomings. Without them I think we would obviously question our need for Him at all. It seems, however, that God is always lovingly drawing us in. Unfortunately there is often suffering involved, but does it not have a sweeter flavor when we come through it and see God's hand in it all.

Alright, enough is enough. I'll stop with all the Christianese for now. I have to say though that I do believe all of these things to be true. God has been real good to me. I just want to share that.